I'm not sure why but I got nosey and was looking at some old friend's myspace.com profiles. I couldn't help but wonder how they are and what they're doing with their lives'. I was reading a blog that one of them wrote and it ended up being about a Lucero song which was funny because I made her listen to that God damn CD SO MANY TIMES that maybe I'm the reason she liked it after all. The song is called "I Can Get Us Out Of Here Tonight." It is one of the best songs on the album and I can see why she'd like it so much. At that point I was feeling a bit emotional, a bit weak so I made a comment about how "Cass" is a better song, at least IMO.
I wasn't expecting a response from her but I got one. It was very friendly and somewhat apologetic about our past history. She admitted to me how much she lied but didn't go in to detail on what exactly. I mean I KNEW she had lied to me and to a lot of other people. I can't stand someone who will lie to friends. Lying to others, now that I get, but to those you consider your closest friends, I'll never understand that. I think she's a smart girl and for the first time in a really long time, I wish her a lot of luck in her life. I held on to a lot of hurt and anger for a long time but for some reason I let that go. I'm not trying to become BFFs with her again because I'm not sure I'll ever completely trust her but I'd like to hear her truths.
Life really is short and lately I feel like it is just blowing by. I almost feel like I'm wasting it. I'm bored and feeling completely unchallenged. I think I'm going to take a few classes. I haven't decided what just yet but I'd like to do something where I could be active yet learn something. Maybe I'll have to take two classes, German, which I'll need for mine and Derek's October trip AND maybe a sport where I'll meet some new friends. We'll see.
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