It has been a few days since I've spoken to Stephen at all. I don't anticipate that we'll speak again. Maybe somewhere down the line we'll cross paths but I'm not so sure of that either. It's painful when I think about our entire relationship. There were so many ups and downs and lack of communication. I really thought maybe we could work it out but I just can't take someone who flops like a fish and lives in the past when we were trying to work out a future.
The thing that sticks in my head the most is that he called me selfish. ME. Selfish. Right. Just because he wasn't getting what HE wanted from me made ME selfish. I stick by my word that I'm not going to use any foul words or take jabs at him. He's said more mean things to me (and I've a bunch I'd like to say to him) but it is counterproductive. It's not worth worrying about. He'll find a new girlfriend and I'll find new men that I am interested in.
I honestly have been feeling better since I decided we wouldn't speak any more. No more texts, no more e-mails. I feel as if a weight has been lifted and I'm back to soaring like the eagle I am. No one is going to hold me down or keep me from the life that I truly want to live. No one.
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