Longing.

My long weekend off is coming to a close which always makes me feel sad. I think about going back to work, which I love my job, but don't love the late nights, weekends and holidays. I've been thinking about doing something to change that. My schedule has been mostly nice up until now. I'm now scheduled to work a few shifts up North. Not that that is a terrible thing but to go North on a Friday at 5 PM is absolute hell. Chances are I'll be late every time. Anyways....enough of that talk.

I'm not sure why but I'm feeling a bit low. I'm having a moment of missing my friends and family. I feel like I don't really have any real friends here like I did back home. Ugh. It's kind of stupid actually because I do have friends just not the quality I was used to back home. I find myself going places alone only to meet up with what I call "familiar strangers." We dance and have fun yet I know so little about their lives. I just miss having that close connection with people and wonder if it will ever happen here in Austin. I know it takes time and effort and I've kind of quit trying with most of the people I know here because they don't return the effort. It sucks.

Stephen and I went to the coast this weekend. It was a nice trip overall with a few really rough moments followed by some really amazing moments. It's funny how you can go through the whole spectrum of emotions in a weekend. Camping on the beach was neat. It is something I'd love to do again with a big group of people....oh wait....I don't know a big group of people. I think the most exciting part was waking up and going over to the harbor where we saw a pod of dolphins. I squealed and was jumping up and down with glee! We also visited the Texas State Aquarium where I met a very handsome parrot! He was quite the show off. I let Stephen drive home on Monday and we stopped in San Antonio to eat at a Vegan place called "Green." It was very good and I wish we lived closer to it as I would eat there all the frickin' time!

Once home, I rested for a while and then took all the blankets to the laundry mat. They were sandy and stunk of campfire much like myself! I then took The Rancho Campo 3000 (RC3K aka, my car) for some TLC. I cleaned the interior as much as I could and then washed the outside. Today I went and got stuff to really clean him and did so in the beautiful Austin sun. This weather is so what I've been waiting for! It is lovely. It was so nice, in fact, Gracie and I joined Anik and Turnip for a walk around the lake.

And that is how I ended up here laying in my bed thinking about how I wish I had more friends here to do things with. I mean really, I just wish people thought of me enough to actually call me, text me or invite me out to do things. Sigh. The end for now.