I don't even know what to write. This week has been kinda sucky. I should be super excited as I'm going to be in Chicago this Friday with my friends and family. Instead, I'm kind of wishing I could just stay in Austin. It's not that I don't want to see my mom, dad and friends, I'm just not as excited as I was a week ago once I learned about all the shit going on at home.
I also learned tonight that my best friend is going to be too busy to see me for even a little while. And while this may be true, I think it is total bullshit. Listen, I TOLD you I was going to be there over my birthday weekend so don't act all shocked when I tell you I'm going to BE THERE ON MY BIRTHDAY WEEKEND. Seriously. I'm not sure where we went wrong but if I don't see you while I'm there, I'm going to erase you completely. We've sucked at keeping in touch since my move OR since I started dating Derek. Sorry I ventured out beyond our little world but what the fuck did you expect?! Ugh. I'm so sad and angry at you that I almost don't want to see you. I haven't cried as hard as I did tonight in a long time. There used to be a time when you'd bend over backwards to see me on a daily basis and now I live 1100 miles away and am visiting for a few days and you can't make an HOUR for me. Whatever.
On top of that disappointment, my grandma is sick and in the hospital. I don't even know what to say about that.
I'm going to miss my dogs, parrot, Austin and Stephen. Sigh.
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