You, Sir, Are Earning Reserved Emotions.

This last week has been a real ass kicker. Between having strep throat, a UTI and fending off migraines, I also worked several overnight shifts at the ER. I'm really loving my job here. I was so afraid I never would but it is happening. I am officially becoming a "Southie" come end of August! I'll only be working two North shifts a month from the looks of it! I couldn't be more pleased. South crew is awesome. I truly enjoy working my shifts with Tree, Nick, Courtney, Laura and Alicia. We all work really well together and have an unspoken flow. We all pull our weight and do what needs to be done for the sake of the patients. I'm learning a lot and I hope that this time next year I'm working on my CCN training. I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

My personal life is also looking bright. I've met someone that I'm enjoying spending time with. It's a bit scary still because we have an awesome connection and things seem to be progressing towards an LTR. I'm fearful only because of this year's earlier events. I never ever want to feel as bad as I did last March. Opening my heart up to the possibility of love is something that I take very seriously. I go on and on so often about the "L" word and its over-use. I just don't want to say I love someone and not mean it 100%. Telling someone I love them means I've put them on a higher level. Love is a reserved emotion for those I hold closest to my heart. End of story. Let's just say when a guy walks a mile each way to get me Taco Bell in 104 degree heat, my heart is pushed in the right direction. He also went out a separate time to CVS to get me a HUGE Red Bull because when asked what I needed to get out of bed, I said, "Red Bull." Without missing a beat, he went. Oh, and if that's not enough, he also took me to the hospital Saturday night and lay with me in the hospital bed as I bitched and moaned about how much it was going to cost and how the heath care system in America was fucked. It's little moments like those that make me feel love. It scares me but it's a good scared. More to come.