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Him: Sassy Muttle died. I don't care what terms were on, that was the most awesomest russel ever :(
Me: (shocked) I'm sorry. That is terrile news. She was an awesome dog and I adored her. My thoughts are with you family.
Him: (An hour later) Shes killin god in heaven right now. One can hope :) i wanna get a new russle! I cried a shit ton today tho. took three days to set in.
Him: (Two minutes later) And i never ment to hurt u. I care deeply about you and im sorry im a douche bag.
Yeah. Last thing I was expecting to wake up to, I'll tell you that much. I instantly wanted to to TXT him back something after his last remark but I have yet to do so. I'm not sure if he reads my blog but if he does he should know that he has NO idea how badly he hurt me. He needs to know that I don't throw the "L" word around. I don't tell someone I love them if I don't LOVE them. My emotions are true and pure without any ulterior motives. Sure, in the end he really did me a favor. Fuck, look at where I'm headed. Heartbreak does a Millie good (in some ways). So will I TXT him back? No. I have SO much to say to him but it's not going to allow me to heal. I don't know if he truly feels bad but I'll let the ball stay in his court for now. He can simmer in it and I'll ferment in everything I want to say to him in this lifetime.
As I told Chad, only time and distance are going to heal this heartbreak. Words won't work.
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